Complaining about why I can't get this current draft finished is so last month, I am going to concentrate on the positive instead: 

I have written the story all the way to "The End". Sure, it's a tragic mess with all kinds of plot holes, character shifts, and series' errors that need to be researched and polished, but technically, it's done. 

I know where the plot is going and sort-of, kind-of have a general idea of how I need to fix it. 

I took time in November to read, get a mammogram, and travel. Okay, so I travel all the time, but usually I work and travel. This time, I did not. Call it poor planning, call it providence, but my  husband and I went to Rome and forgot to add the right kind of international service to our phone plan, so we toured the city old school with off-line maps and placard reading instead of googling. 

This month's insecurity? As always, it's in finding the balance and getting all the things done that a writer needs to do to sell a book. It's a lot. Those of you who do it well, I commend you. I've been at it for a decade or more and I still haven't found the balance. 

No and yes. :)